Yeah so its been a very long time since I posted here. I had used this more as a drop point for my poems and songs, along as a journal for myself. A Lot of things have changed.

First off, I must apologize to everyone on here that watches this. It is rare that I go so long without communicating even though I check this every once in a while.

2ndly for those who are out there that really care, My problems have multiplied by alot. My current Gf Anna who i have known for over 7 years is a Major in the USAF (air force) and is currently overseas, along with no end in current sight. I have no idea when shes coming home. Along with few other problems, she has become distant, and it is not suiting me well.

3rd, my emotions are running hectic, life is crazy and I think I'm the one thats going crazy. Its hard to keep focus and my life on task, let alone do normal stuff of everyday. I feel as if I am failing, (and in some cases I am) at my job, my life, my relationship, my leadership, my friends, and my clan, which all of these are very important to me. And as always, running away in any form is not an option.

Lastly, I do somehow feel a little more free, and better, My parents are moving LONG ways away(thank god), and I will be free again, but not as independent, due to the limited restrictions of my job (mainly cash), and I have calmed a bit about my worries thanks to a few rare people I have met along the way.

I'mma gonna go try and post something now  lol.