Yeah So I haven't posted on here forever it seems. Life has taken a few weird turns.

To start I had my friend Claire's bday at my place. It went great at first then few people got drunk and it went from a party to a medical ward lol. Didn't sleep much that night, then this week I had to work Black Friday, It wasen't as bad as I expected it to be. Plus I lucked out and didn't hafta be on the register. So I didn't sleep well the night before that consitering I had to be there at 4 AM. Just pretty much not been sleeping well.

2nd off, I had a date with a good friend of mine, although we haven't ever really got together much, we are still good friends. We decided after our date, that we'd do things together and junk so we could get to know eachother better then decided if we should contiune dating or not. But that has yet to happen. I all truth, the feelings are sadly starting to fade as it really goes no where. It's not her, or my fault really, but lack of doing anything together takes it far, far away.

In other semi related news, I have developed feelings for a differnt person, but they are very minor, in fact I'm not sure what to call them. In all truth they feel as if they are simply feelings of that I get along well with this person and that they make me smile. Well thats the scary thing. No one has made me smile in 5 years. Again with a girl I know very little and along with it being with a person that dosen't live near me. It makes it very hard. But a feeling inside of me is telling me that it is right, for some reason, but its not a feeling, its more like god telling me what to do. And yes, I just said, god, is telling me, to do something. Everyone get out their books, because thats one for them. Really I have no clue what to do, I am just simply trying to talk to everyone as much as I can, it is just very...mild right now and I am not in the best physical and mental shape atm. I have yet to get better in any way and I am still stressed and depressed to the max.